it's been a while

Both for this post and since I've had any real romantic stimulus. Actually, it's only been a month-but that can feel like forever.
Ok, so there's the other guy I am still keeping in touch with-me and K call him "nature boy." My first (and only) date with nature boy- we picked vegetables in his garden for dinner. In Pecos. In the dark. And he told me that he caught and skinned a rattlesnake earlier that day that was hiding under his house. Later he ate it. He sculpts granite. He has water barrels all around his house that catch the rain. He has a compost. As for me, I will throw my Kettle One vodka bottle into my neighbor's recycling bin every now and then-but that's about it. I felt like such a recycling imposter around him. I mean, I get that recycling guilt-you know, that guilt of throwing something away you know is recycle-worthy. Isn't that enough?
It was actually a really good meal, though. However, we had two bottles of wine-I got really close to drunk and spilled my glass of red wine on his ex-girlfriends rug. How I find THE rug that might actually have some sort of sentimental value is beyond me.
Actually, I didn't quite get that right. NOT his ex-girlfriend. His present "friend with benefits" person. He says they "see other people." "It's very confusing." "It's something that has just taken a long time to end." Hmmm. I got out of my 6 year relationship because it was so complicated and difficult. Now I see complicated and difficult coming from two different guys and I'm thinking, is there any other sort of flavors out there? Or, probably the "healthier" question would be, "why am I ATTRACTING this type of situation still?" That, my friends, would be the complicated, difficult, impossible type of situation. However, I'm slowly forming this theory that there are no uncomplicated beginnings in relationships. I'll let you know if I find any exceptions. Boiling it all down: Taurus women suck out loud at not thinking about relationships.